Fifty
Today I turn 50. It's caused me to reflect on these past ten years and many changes that have happened in my life. When I turned 40 it was 2009 and I was in transition from working full time at Christ the King Network Resources back into part time church pastoring and part time administrating. Our children were 13 and 10. There were fears of what the teenage years might bring, but our family of four was intact. When I turned 40 I knew there were some troubling aspects of the version of Christianity I was living and teaching to others, but I still buried those questions and doubts deep within me, fearing speaking them out loud or really seeking different answers. In the past 5 years I've grown up a lot. Trials of raising teenagers who are now out on their own have tested me and forced me to examine who I am, how I react to things, and what it means to have healthy boundaries. Through self examination and the help of a counselor I've identified patterns of thinkin